Suspended Texas Rangers outfielder Nelson Cruz is spending his days thinking of the ‘what ifs?’

As the Rangers continue their downward spiral further and further away from the playoffs Cruz can do nothing more but watch from afar.

According to an article by USA Today Sports Cruz feels partly responsible for the Rangers’ September struggles.
"It's so hard you can't explain it in words" Cruz told USA Today. "There's nothing worse than seeing your teammates battle knowing you can't help. I'm not even on the bench or even around. I try to text them and stuff and try to motivate the best I can. There's nothing else I can do.”

Cruz was suspended on Aug. 5 for 50 games for receiving performance-enhancing drugs from Biogenesis of America a defunct anti-aging clinic in Miami.

It was the largest mass suspension in baseball since February 1986 when 13 players were penalized in fallout from the Pittsburgh cocaine trials.

The Rangers are 22-21 since Cruz’s suspension and have fallen 1 ½ games back of the wild-card. Texas was eliminated from contention in the AL West race after its 4-0 loss to the Royals on Sunday in Kansas City Mo.

Cruz was Texas' most productive power hitter before his suspension hitting 27 home runs with 76 RBI in 108 games.
Texas is 5-15 in the month of September scoring more than five runs just three times.

Cruz could have appealed his 50-game suspension and would have been eligible to play the rest of the season during the process. However Cruz told USA Today he was threatened with a 100-game ban by MLB officials had he appealed.

"We'd be in better shape if he wasn't suspended" Rangers general manager Jon Daniels told the newspaper. "It's a choice Nelson made."
Cruz can rejoin the Rangers if they make the playoffs. With seven games left in the season there is no certainty the Rangers will qualify for the postseason let alone bring Cruz back in to the mix.
The 33-year-old Dominican Republic native currently is in Arizona at the Rangers’ instructional league camp preparing to rejoin the club.