I've spent a surprising amount of time this week thinking about Barry Zito. Wondering about the kind of ovation he'd get. Speculating as to what kind of outing he'd leave us with. It didn't exactly dominate every waking moment but it was a favorite topic of mine. To think about the Giants was to think about Barry Zito for the last seven years. It was weird to think it was all going to end.

I spent almost no time at all thinking about Tim Lincecum. It wasn't until I saw a few tweets that it sunk in. This could be the last time we see Tim Lincecum in a Giants uniform.

That's actually possible. And it didn't hit me until a couple hours ago. We had a diminutive security blanket in every offseason since 2007 regardless of whatever else was going on. At least the Giants have Lincecum you'd think. Even when he was bad in 2012 he ended the postseason in such a positive way it was hard not to be optimistic. There was always Tim Lincecum.

But I was thinking about Zito.

Part of it is that it's much likelier for Lincecum to come back. The Giants are going to extend a qualifying offer which should be one year $14 million or so. Even if another team wants to go 2/$30M Lincecum might be more interested in the one-year deal then hit the market after a strong season looking for nine f…

Another much larger part of it is that I don't want to believe it. From draft to prospectdom to rookie promise to Cy Young to other Cy Young to World Series to other World Series to no-hitter to Thursday night against the Dodgers. Sunrise sunset. Like sands through the hourglass. I get all that. But oh hell no I didn't just watch Tim Lincecum's last game as a Giant.

I was even relieved when Carl Crawford got a triple. I didn't want a perfect game. I didn't want a shutout. I didn't want a game that made me think "Oh yes now that's the way to go out!" Nope. That would have made it too real. I'm not ready for too real. As is I'll take the no-decision in an eventual win.