"It was stupid. It was an independent panel and I was always going to accept their punishment. I sent a letter to Steve to say I was sorry and that I deeply regret it," he says

Alan Pardew says he has paid a "heavy price" for his head-butt on David Meyler - and thanked owner Mike Ashley for not giving him the sack.

The Newcastle coach has written to Hull boss Steve Bruce and Meyler to apologise again for his moment of madness.

Pardew will start a three game stadium ban and four game touchline ban against Fulham at the weekend after admitting improper conduct to an FA disciplinary hearing this week.

Pardew says he has seen the incident "2,000 times now" and says he made a bad mistake in front of millions of television viewers.

He is ready to get help in keeping cool from the League Managers' Association and vowed to "become a better manager" after his clash with Meyler.

Reacting for the first time to his lengthy ban and £160,00 combined club and FA fine, Pardew said: "I think I want to reiterate my apologies to David (Meyler) and Steve (Bruce) and fans up and down the country and particularly my own who have been terrific supporting me, and Mike, for a situation I should not have been in.

"It was stupid. It was an independent panel and I was always going to accept their punishment. I sent a letter to Steve to say I was sorry and that I deeply regret it.